i’ve been soo busy working full time, taking care of my daughter, and doing all this cooking, cleaning, and house work that i don’t seem to have much time left over for sleep much less social networking or venting :(
"Your absence has gone through me
-W.S. Merwin, “Separation”
Like thread through a needle
Everything I do is stitched with its color."
my sister got a free car when she first started driving. and she ran it into the ground. that thing is a piece of shit now because she never took care of it. she got into accidents, backed into things, scraped the sides, broke the handles, never took it to the mechanic. and now that my dad bought a new car, because hers is a piece of shit, he wants to give his old car to her. for free. it’s ridiculous. i could use a new car too, i’m stuck driving my mom’s van. i hate the van. but i drive it because i have no other choice. my unstable financial situation didn’t allow me to keep up with my car payment so i lost my car. i learned a lot of lessons from that experience. but once again she’s going to get a car for free. and she wont even appreciate it for very long because she hasn’t had to work for it. she blows all the money she makes on herself and doesn’t save or contribute anything. if she had a car payment every month or even had to use her own money to actually buy a car she would know how it feels to have something because you worked hard for it.
We spend our entire lives amassing sand to make of ourselves the most lavish and impenetrable castles so that we may show them to the world and proclaim: “Behold all that is me!”. But the world cares not, for it knows that not one of our fortresses will stand as a test for the tides of time.
In the end it really doesn’t even matter.